Love, Amore, yêu, Ai, ความรัก

Amore, we’ve all felt it once right? Thinking we’ve found “the ONE” heck maybe you have him/her right now and that’s wonderful. And I’ve felt it a few times before, but I’m a picky lil lady LOL, I’m not those type of girls that say “oh I’ve dated 20-30 dudes and they’re all the same!” nah that’s not me… guess this is where I let all the secrets out eh haha welp.. so far I’ve only been with 3 guys 


1st one was pretty long term 2nd was VERY…VERY short and the third one well… it’s been two months and well let’s just say it was no no Jay Z and Beyoncé or whatever. Did I feel it would last a long time? Answer: sort of but not really. Since this is open Diary I will not say names of people I know but I just want to say. I am honestly turned off by a guy that will constantly bring up sex ALL the time, stop thinking with your dick and think with your brain please. Yes humans are sexual creatures but there’s a time and place for everything ya know. Now I don’t want to start ranting on my soap box, so I’ll keep this general. But there has been some interesting things I’ve been told; some good, some bad I don’t know really. Here are some real life examples:
· “She’s always all up on me” –Ex-Boyfriend referring to me saying I didn’t give him enough ‘space’.
· “I’m always Horny you just don’t know it” –No Names needed here…
· “Baby I wanna *** —- you while…!@$$Y^#$^&$^#…….” –Ok I know I said I’m not going to hide stuff but this…. Eh I don’t feel comfortable writing all that out.
· Me: you expected me to be easy? Guy: Yeah! -Yeah, and that was a first date to…
        Yeah, I’ve had some interesting encounters but I’m not going to write here and say all guys are sex addicts and only want one thing, blah, blah, blahhhhh the guys I referred in that list, I don’t necessarily “hate” them, they just need to change their way of approaching me. I want to stay cool with them and be a friend or just an acquaintance or nothing at all but I don’t want to be hated by someone ya know. But love is so crazy; you don’t know what the hell can happen. And its funny Cuz my friends always tell me that I always get the “scary freaky black guys,” hahaha and it’s pretty damn accurate because I never dated a non-black guy I guess I can say. I have nothing wrong with that but I love diversity ya know but I never managed to get an oriental. I had one Asian guy I was CRAZY about he was Vietnamese,(More about HIM here) and get this –We had the SAME birthday! July 26th 1994! (Sorry fellas, if you’re reading this you’re probably annoyed and thinking like “oh here she goes about those damn Asian boys!) but I was smitten by this; I tried to talk to him like everyone else could but I was too damn shy and he was a quiet person just like me. We would have short and simple conversation every now and then. And I do mean SHORT and SIMPLE. The only time I was close to him was sophomore year 6th bell in biology and I was fucking lucky to sit RIGHT NEXT TO HIM FOR THE WHOLE YEAR! But I guess I’ll admit my creepy side huh? I’m going to lose mega points for this but, I became a stalker to “Tim” I figured out his whole schedule, well ok most of it but that’s the furthest I went to. I didn’t try to find out where he lived (even though I kind of wanted to) Even to this day, I find him still attractive but I been gave up on trying to date him. (I sort of assumed he didn’t date black girls even though I’m not all black but still. Maybe he would date a colored girl but I just said forget it) I still pass him in the halls and I have no classes with him but I gotta say I love his wardrobe!
So there. the secret is out! I am an Asian lover and I have stalker tendencies rethinking about being my friend now? LOL but aside all that, I’ve actually came across some really great guys! And some of them done grew up since the 2000’s and I’m very impressed on the attitude change. So you might ask; “So Alisha, if you’ve came across these “great” guys, why didn’t you give em a chance?” Answer: ya know, I really don’t know. And it’s funny because I became friends with a guy back in my freshman year –Lets call him “Danial” and I could obviously tell he liked me we messaged each other on Facebook all the time and when we would do those” LMS status and I’ll inbox___” I would like and he would admit that he likes me but he would play it off by just making a joke or whatever but I knew he was serious and I knew he was shy about it. We never did date but we’re good friends though and it’s always good to have at least one good guy friend ya know.
      And I’ve met few guys that’s actually liked what I like –Anime and I wasn’t all to surprised cause what guy didn’t like Dragon Ball Z and Full Metal Alchemist back in the day ??? LOL but not only that. It would be guys that have everything set out for their selves, weather its college or some sort of Army/Air Force/ROTC something POSITIVE because I know I have my life set up in the hopes that will happen, because I KNOW I’m going to Columbus for Photography or SOME type of art school because I’m not going to spend my time with a lazy bum and I’m sure the type of guy I want doesn’t want a lazy lady now does he? I’d hope not! (even though I jokingly say I’m “lazy” but I’m not I swear lol)
So I guess my love life is very…simplistic? I guess, I just like to have a nice time with someone that will keep me smiling and laughing and just keeping me company ya know. Someone that won’t pressure me about sex. And so you might ask, “Well Alisha, what turns you on then?” Answer: for some odd reason I see “turn on’s/offs as sexual terms. I have NO IDEA why though! But I don’t care if you use those terms Lol I see it more as Do’s and Don’ts but to answer the question here’s my list:
Do-
· Have a good sense of humor
· Be open minded and respectful about my views on things even if you disagree
· Respect me, it’s not that hard.
· Be able to be mature at times but can be a big kid as well (I’m a big kid myself!)
Don’t-
· Disrespect me
· Use offensive slurs (Fags/Faggots, That’s Gay, Retarded etc.)
· Hide things from me (now I can understand if you don’t want to share personal info but if you’re saying something like “oh I’m doing something this Friday but I’m not telling you” I’m not going to automatically assume your cheating or whatever it just makes you looks suspicious and it annoys me)
· Do Drugs (if you drink socially and your of AGE I don’t care but don’t be a smoker or an alcoholic)
As I look at my list it looks like school rules for some reason lol but these are true! Those are the guidelines of having a relationship with me! I don’t ask for much but I don’t want my standards to low either ya know. And no one is perfect it’s a god given fact! And as I think back, which wasn’t too far back really. I would ridicule people if they were out having sex or doing things they shouldn’t do –and I would curse myself for being such a… bitch basically. Because in reality no one will fit all your needs and you can’t knock someone for a past mistake and then realize, damn… I’m no different nor am I any better than that person!